I am sorely addicted to Fallout 4 (modded).
So blogger is messing with me. I find myself in a constant war with how mods is a good way to play a game I should have just beat in vanilla (although vanilla is atrocious in this case). Still, I find I stop at some point and say, No. No, I am not taking this anymore. I have got to go back and start again.
Why?
Because I can, at least in the video game.
Maybe, this time, I can get it more right than the last almost successful playthrough. Usually my downfall in Fallout 4 is a new mod comes along and suddenly everything makes better- but only if you wipe the slate clean and start again.
This doesn't happen in IRL. It doesn't there are no do-overs.
Well, almost none.
If you can get one or more parties to agree to start over, it kind of works although in all my experience- save that I usually am the one who loses something each time.
I really, really want it to work in my favor once.
I want to keep the girlfriend instead of thinking.
So, I find myself going back to the one thing I can play and live over and over again.
So as I embark on my fifth do-over in Fallout 4. I pause to reflect on the two truths, I have found while writing this blog.
1.
If in IRL, you feel like you need a Do-Over, probably God (or that other being who appeals to your idea of existentialism) is telling you to stop, look at the other part or parties and admit to them, to yourself that perhaps instead of starting over with them, you should start over with someone else or yourself. Do-Over, only work in video games if you actually do something different. (Don't tell Piper, she is better off without Nat).
2
If you have a rocket launcher you are ahead of the game.
IRL this is only true if the FBICIATBF G-Men don't immediately confiscate it.
That's where I am or was.
Now I got to go edit my Fallout 4 Prefs ini.
Anyone asks- tell it was all according to Mike
it works for me.
In case you don't have a clue what that means. It's not important. Just know that sometimes I feel more at home in a post apocalyptic wasteland in an America that never existed than in a country that I only thought existed. I mean, our modern day America is not what I grew up believing it to be. I find that people in the game are often more friendly and accepting of me and each other than the very people I work with, play with, drive with, shop with and vote with.
Sure, some of the virtual ones shoot at you and want to eat you, but it feels more honest than the hidden feelings that people around me IRL (in real life) express.
Since Real Life isn't that real anymore, I find myself interacting with most people via Social Media. Where people lose their minds on a daily basis, where people who would otherwise be ignored or just stay silent go on rapid fire twitter rants and facebook monologues.
Life is messy.
Vegetarians turn out to be a lot like other fanatics and at some point trying to grin and bear it is more like slowly driving a rusty fork into your thigh while smiling and trying not to come out a call a sanctimonious ne'er do well a Dick.
(my apologies to all the Richard's in the world)
Will said it, so it must be true.
Also side note never tell one of those Vegetarians that Vegetables Cry.
That was a fairly atomic response in which I suddenly became the sole representative of the entire meat processing industry...
and I didn't even get a hamburger for it.
Why?
Because I can, at least in the video game.
Maybe, this time, I can get it more right than the last almost successful playthrough. Usually my downfall in Fallout 4 is a new mod comes along and suddenly everything makes better- but only if you wipe the slate clean and start again.
Well, almost none.
If you can get one or more parties to agree to start over, it kind of works although in all my experience- save that I usually am the one who loses something each time.
I really, really want it to work in my favor once.
I want to keep the girlfriend instead of thinking.
So as I embark on my fifth do-over in Fallout 4. I pause to reflect on the two truths, I have found while writing this blog.
1.
If in IRL, you feel like you need a Do-Over, probably God (or that other being who appeals to your idea of existentialism) is telling you to stop, look at the other part or parties and admit to them, to yourself that perhaps instead of starting over with them, you should start over with someone else or yourself. Do-Over, only work in video games if you actually do something different. (Don't tell Piper, she is better off without Nat).
2
If you have a rocket launcher you are ahead of the game.
IRL this is only true if the FBICIATBF G-Men don't immediately confiscate it.
That's where I am or was.
Now I got to go edit my Fallout 4 Prefs ini.
Anyone asks- tell it was all according to Mike
it works for me.
