On the turning away, when our generation once looked away to distractions of our youths
because it was easier to occupy our coming awareness with collective fantasies
than to face the budding awareness that change was indeed possible as the winds turned again in human history
whilst I perfected my D&D skills AIDS took quietly took away two of my favorite men
their lifestyles were blamed, then the sexuality then drugs then music, and then when the was nothing else to tell but the truth my father denied who or what my uncle even had been all his life, and my religion stripped away even his own soul in favor of pleasing my mother and his own mother as well.
And Freddy?
He died with cautious dignity as I stopped turning away from the reality that denial is the single hardest thing to overcome, AIDS was real, while everyone around me was fucking to their heart's content, I did not.
Now to see it today, happening all again, I see my family and friends refusing to face a reality that endangers the weak, the elderly, and our children. It has killed so many people many of whom had no clue what they did or didn't do and yet as surely as the TV evangelists who screamed at the cameras of old that this was God's punishment to the sinful
They are replaced by Media Moguls who scream the same from the anchor desks and microphones.
Ironically, I find myself at odds with why God would put up with such idiocy that I can almost accept that He really sent those plagues upon the sinful in the good old biblical days of myth.
I mean the Egyptians had it coming.
The Pharoah was fine of course, in his golden palace.
but the average working-class guy was screwed because yet another angry, vengeful deity had a point to prove according to this guy Moses.
I no longer believe in that god. I no longer wish such blind punishments upon the helpless masses with the electronic diety held firmly in their hands worshipped daily as they spend almost as much time staring at their own turning aways as I did in my youth
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